Sick...and Tired

Let's get one thing straight, I'm not sick and tired of my 12in12in2012 challenge.  I'm just sick....and also tired.  The flu hit me this past weekend after a long 11.5 mile run and even though I had my flu shot, it still hit me fairly hard.  Enough to call in sick to work and then sleep A LOT.  Enough to want to sleep all day, every day.  And enough to feel it necessary to skip a few workouts.  And I mean 3 workouts.  1 run and 2 yoga sessions. But who's counting? 

I hate missing workouts and I hate being sick.  I was on a nice little routine last week... eating healthy, running in the mornings, getting it ALL done.  Being a champ.  A champ in complete control.  That sure felt good.  And now here I am in this week....eating crap, sick, missing workouts and not getting it done.  Life sure is frustrating sometimes.  Although I know it is unrealistic, I'd like to just blame the world for the injustice that is me getting sick and missing my workouts.  Fortunately for the World, I wasn't raised to blame my issues on anyone other than myself. And there are voices in my head that keep asking 'Isn't this your own fault somehow?'.

So, maybe it is my fault.  Maybe I should take more vitamins, maybe I should drink more water, maybe I should force a recovery day after a long run, maybe I shouldn't take so much on in general, maybe I shouldn't have been around my husband when he was sick, maybe maybe maybe...

But maybe life just throws us curve balls.  Almost everyday we receive a curve ball to the face with our name on it.  Some days we dodge it, some days it smacks us pretty cleanly.   I consider myself to have been smacked in the face the past few days.  While I'd like to go home tonight and take (yet another) nap, I'm going to go for a run instead.  It will most likely suck.  I'm not sure if my body is ready for it, but my mind is.  I'd like to salvage this week if possible before the next curve ball comes hurtling my way.